Saturday, October 29, 2011

Just make a fist and let go

Pep rally line up
Lol little football
Honestly, "same shit, different day" is the story of my life right now. All of the days blend together and I can't seem to keep track of time very well. My time of good luck seems to be off and on. One day I'm having the time of my life and then a few days later, it all goes to crap. Whatever. I'm trying to make the best of it but it seems that I can't control much of what happens.
Homecoming was last weekend and it was amazing. It was a long, tough week, but I survived. Hahah. Spirit week went really well, even though there was an underground week going on too. Here's a picture from Senior Citizen/ Baby Day:
Harrison, an old man with dementia, and Drew, an old, cripple
These guys are the BEST <3
The dance was pretty good. As always though, a guy made me upset there. It never fails... On the flip side, the morning before the dance was amazing. The guy I really like came over for a couple hours after film and we just chilled. It's nice being around him. He's so hilarious. I really wish we could date, but I know it wouldn't probably last through football. I'd get too pissed that we wouldn't be able to see each other much. Maybe once the season ends we can give it a go... I hope.
My crown - TD tradition
School is going well but God forbid it not be crazy. Boswell's class is kicking my butt. I'm so ready for this 9 weeks to be over. NOW. Even though I have a B, it's barely there... Haha. God help me.
Friends and I aren't getting along well. I'm just sort of keeping to myself. I'm just so tired of drama, lies, rumors, and bullcrap. I don't need it pulling me down again. I've finally moved past it all and I don't want it to follow me. It seems like everybody that can find a fault with me right now is doing so. I'm so tired of being put down about the small things. Some people need to put themselves in check and stop worrying about what other people do wrong. I'm not perfect, never will be, and never claim to be.
I'm going to visit UVA in a couple weeks. I'm so excited. I hope I really like it, considering I want to go there SO bad. My guidance counselor asked why I want to apply for only really hard schools. I was like, "They're all difficult? I have a 4.2 GPA. I think I'm good..." Hahah, forreal though.
Back to the guy thing, I can't seem to get him off my mind. I never thought I would ever feel this way about him. Honestly, I didn't know if I would ever like him at all. It's really strange though. I haven't felt this way about someone since Zack, in the terms of how much and why. It's like, I acknowledge his faults and downfalls, but I still care about him and love being around him. However, I don't think it's a good thing. I know he and I wouldn't last any long than high school and I don't want another huge disappointment. On top of it, I don't think he feels the same way... Which makes it worse.
I've been so tense lately. Between school, after school, drama, orchestra, and everything else, I'm slammed. I'm so done with useless people. 


I can't wait to leave all of this behind. Home is where the heart is and my heart isn't here anymore. I'm ready for a change again.


L M Butler


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Sunday, October 2, 2011

Pot of gold

Spirit shirt I made to support Christian.
"SOLIS-SHEPPERSON"
I honestly believe that good things happen to people who channel good energy to them. I know that sounds like a hippie way of saying it, but that's the only way I can think of putting it for now. I've been in a great mood and have ignored all of the bad things going on in my life right now; and now all of a sudden a lot of things are getting better and going right. I have not been this happy in a long time.
My friends seem to be coming around. After the whole argument with beloved Shaql, I thought our friendship was completely over. As in never speaking ever again. Well, it seems that I was wrong. I finally got the chance to talk to him, and he was not as 'pissed off' as I thought he was. He is just been super super super busy, and I can understand that completely. I feel so much better about the whole situation now that he and I talked about everything. He is such a great friend and I love him to death. I do not know what I would do without him. In full honesty though, I would probably miss his smile and laugh the most. Hahah.
So, there's this guy... Hahaha. Typical starter for me, eh? Anyway, His name is Tevin. He is insanely hilarious and really sweet. He is a pretty great guy that I hope becomes a long term friend. I also got a letter from my best friend the other day. He says he is doing well but he is really struggling with being so isolated. I feel bad for him, but hell will be home soon. I can not wait to see him. 
"You're wearing #24 on you one way or another..."
Homecoming is coming up in three weeks. THREE weeks. That is it! I am going bananas. There is so much to do and nobody is helping me. Sometimes I wondering why I ran for SCA VP. All we have done so far though is figure out the themes for the Spirit Week days and the Homecoming Dance theme. However, we still have to get them approved by the administration and everything. The process is taking forever and I doubt this whole thing will go smoothly. I am so tired of having a shitty crappy HC Dance. I hope that we have better decorations this year. Wait, we WILL have better decorations this year because I am the one planning it. Duh. :)
School is going pretty good. Boswell's class is kicking my ass butt though. She is a demon lady, I swear. Hahaha. Surprisingly, AP US History is going really well. I enjoy the class and I am not doing too bad. Mr. Duncan is the best teacher ever. I take my SAT on December third, so wish me luck. I am a little nervous about it, but I think I will do pretty good. After I get my results, I am applying for college! YAY!
Also with school, I have All County Orchestra coming up as well. That is in two weeks. Then, in four weeks the entire Orchestra has our Fall concert. The Concert Orchestra is pretty good this year and we are playing some good music. I am really looking forward to it.
I take Behind The Wheel in two weeks to get my license. I am so excited. AND I get my braces off in five weeks. I am counting down the days, believe me. I will be so happy to get these little suckers off my teeth. The Orthodontist said they will look fantastic.

As I said before, it is like everything is going really great at the moment. I have some amazing friends and have left the bad ones behind. I get my license soon and my braces off very soon as well. To top it off, school is pretty great right now too. Need less to say, I am a very happy girl right now. It seems I have hit my Pot of Gold.

L M Butler

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Honesty is the best policy

School has started and we hit the ground running. I had three papers due, three quizzes, and two tests, ALREADY. It's week two people! Stupid AP and honors classes. It's not too bad I guess, I'm just lazy. Senioritis has set in like crazy. However, I also noticed that CCPS gave us more days off this year. Which is pretty awesome. We also have this stupid thing called "Enrichment Period" instead of Friday Focus. I actually like it, a lottttt. It gives me forty-five minutes to do the homework I didn't complete the night before. Haha, yes I'm so over the whole school thing.
It is getting chilly here in the VA. Fall is approaching and it feels great. I love the Fall season. I feel so bad for countries that don't have more than one or two seasons.
So, about that guy and I. Yeah, it's too far gone. Somebody started rumors and they got to him. He flipped bananas on me and now refuses to notice I exist. Hah, really? I hate it when people automatically believe rumors and don't let the other person defend themselves. No, you don't have to believe me, but you at least owe me the chance to explain my side. If he was any type of good friend, in my opinion, he would. If not, nothing lost, eh? I can't believe it is only two weeks into the school year and bitches are already starting drama, mostly Seniors at that. Really? Grow up, forreal.
So far Dale has lost the first two games of the football season. The whole team is really down about it. Next Friday is the first home game, so hopefully that will go better. It's against Petersburg, so I doubt it honestly... There's going to be a pep rally before the game, too. So maybe that will boost the guy's confidence and help them win. I'm excited to go see them play. I think it will be a good, possibly close game. And I get to see Demetrick too.
I'm really looking forward to December. I not only get my license, but I also get my braces off. I'm so excited. I also take my SAT on December 3rd. That I'm not too hype about. On the other hand, I'm excited to apply for college this coming May.
College is another story. I'm still applying for Univer. of Mich. and UVA, but not for Aerospace Engineering. I've decided that getting a degree in Mechanical Engineering with a focus on Aerospace would get me farther in the long run. Then again, at this point, I would rather just go study something random, like Psychology. Then again, I would shoot myself is I were a therapist. I have enough problems of my own, and I don't want to listen to other people's for a living. Harsh? A little, maybe. At least I'm honest.


L M Butler

Monday, August 22, 2011

The basic bitchez wear that shit, so I don't even bother

My new friend
This summer is already almost over. Two weeks from tomorrow and it is back to the old grind. I'm excited but I'm not. I still have to finish my summer assignments and all that hubbub. I wish that I had done more this summer, but whatever.
Speaking of things I've done this summer, at one point my mom, aunt, cousin, and I all went to the Natural Bridge Zoo. We had a blast. My mom wanted to go mainly to pet a baby tiger and get a picture of her and I holding it. There were two baby cubs the time we went. One was a bengal tiger named Apollo and a white bengal tiger name Zeus. We ended up being able to hold Zeus and take our picture with him. He was a heavy little thing. Haha. We also visited the drive-thru zoo that was near Natural Bridge. That was hilarious. All of the animals were sticking their heads in the car and spitting food everywhere. My mother got her little food bucket taken away by one of the camels. It scared the crap out of her. Hah. It wasn't exactly my idea of a vacation but it was something to do. I ended up making friends with one of the giraffes.
So, the guy that I was talking to and really liked has almost completely stopped talking to me. Now that football season has started, he barely has time to even text me. I also really pissed him off the last time we hung out, so I'm thinking that maybe that also has something to do with it. Even though that mess was almost three weeks ago. Really? Get over what I said and move on. I sincerely apologized and I would take it back if I could. Whatever... Guys seem to always end up disliking me for whatever reason possible. I always fuck screw up good things before I get to enjoy them. I have terrible guilt, so I feel really bad. I just miss talking to him, ya know? I hope that he starts talking to me again at least once school starts. However, I don't want to end up dating a guy who doesn't have time for a girlfriend. Been there, dealt with that bullshit; NEVER again. I may not deserve the best, but I deserve better than that.
My best friend left about a week ago for the Navy. He came over the day before he left to say goodbye. I wasn't expecting him to, but I was really excited to see him one last time. It meant a lot that he took time from his busy schedule to spend a fews hours with me. He and I no longer have that awkward tension between us of the, "Are we friends? Or more than friends?" thing. I love him to death, but as nothing more than a friend. And I think he finally realizes that. I'm so surprised that our friendship wasn't ruined by everything that has happened over the past two years. I don't think I could have survived these past two without him there sometimes. Then again, he was a big problem himself. Oh well, he's gone now. I probably won't see him much, if at all, for the next eight years. So, farewell. <3
So, I was going to try out for volleyball but... Yeah. I went the first day and tore my quad muscle. Yep, I'm a clutz. What can I say? I was only able to go the one day, so obviously I didn't make the team. I think it would have been too much anyway. With holding two offices, three clubs, Rock4Life, AP classes, and only one "easy-breezy" class this year, I would have gone crazy. Like a friend of mine pointed out, it would have overloaded me and I would fail at everything because I would be doing too much. So, I guess it was a blessing in disguise? Hah. At least that's how I am having to look at it. 
Not much else is really happening for me right now. I've been at home mostly, trying to get all of my crap straight for school and just my life in general. I'm trying to figure out everything I need so that I can apply for college here soon and get that mess going. I'm back to contemplating what major I'd like to study again. I'm interested in Aerospace Engineering, but I want to do something on a worldly scale. Something that I could do anywhere in the world, while learning about other cultures and lifestyles. I change my mind a lot, I know. I just get bored with the same thing over and over.


"Life moves fast. Sometimes you have to step back and take a look or else you'll miss it."


L M Butler

Thursday, August 4, 2011

WEEZY F. BABY!

So, as I said in my last post, I went to a Lil Wayne concert on the 30th of August. It was amazing. It featured the Far East Movement, Keri Hilson, Rick Ross (Ricky Rozzay), Young Money, Mack Mane, and (of course) Lil Tunechi. I took pictures of the whole concert like a crazy person. I also recorded videos, but in the background you can hear me screaming and singing as if I were tone deaf. Hahaha. I kid you not. The concert was really a last minute plan. Lindsey called me on Friday night and said, "So, spend the night at my house tonight, go to VA Beach with me tomorrow, then a Weezy concert, then come home Sunday." I said, "Well, alrighty! On my way over." Hahaha. So, I went and spent the night at her house and then her sister, Ashley, and her friend Lena picked us up Saturday morning. We hit the beach for the day and chilled at the Hilton Sky Bar. The Hilton hotel was beyond fabulous. We headed for the concert around 6p. and it started at 7p. Everyone performed in the order as I listed them above. Lil Wayne was the best of all. He is such an amazing entertainer. I really hope I get to see him LIVE again.


Lil Wayne <3 - "Sorry 4 The Wait"
Weezy <3 - "Sorry 4 The Wait"
Far East Movement !
Keri Hilson !
Ricky Roozzzaaayy! "God Forgives, I Don't"
Lil Tunechi <3 "Sorry 4 The Wait"
L M Butler

Time flies when you're having fun

Little Terrell
I feel like it has been forever since I've posted. Geez. I could've sworn it was June yesterday. Anywho...
So, today was the last day of teaching summer school at MCES. After about the second week or so, some of the kids stopped coming. This one kid, Josh, was obnoxious as shit crap. When he didn't come for the last week, I was so excited. I hate to say it, but I am glad I never have to see that child again. Most of the kids were really adorable. There was one kid named Terrell and he was the cutest little thing ever. He was barely over three feet tall and the most polite child ever. Some of the kids, I will actually miss.
So, this past weekend I went to a Weezy concert. It was AMAZING! Probably the best concert I have ever been to. I'll make an entire post about it in a few minutes.
So, this guy and I are really hitting it off. He is so sweet. I miss having a relationship with somebody that's more than a friendship. I just wish people were not so harsh about this guy and I dating. He sort of has a bad reputation with girls. However, I'm willing to give him the benefit of the doubt. I just really hope I don't get labeled as a whore for dating this guy. We shall see...
"Best friend" leaves in a little less than two weeks. He and I have barely talked since school let out. I'm not necessarily surprised considering we've grown apart, but I am a little disappointed. He seems to be full of broken promises, yet again. Whatever. I refuse to let him get me down. I'm to the point of where I am above that.
I must say, the past two weeks of my Summer have been the best. I've gotten along with my family great, I have a boyfriend that isn't a dick, teaching went well, I went to the best concert ever, and so much more. It feels great to be happy. It really does.
So, the coolest thing happened the other day. I found my elementary school best friend on Facebook. It made my day. I haven't talked to him in almost 9 years, but we picked up a conversation like it was just yesterday in third grade. I absolutely love catching up with old friends. I can't wait to have lunch with him one day soon and get up to date on everything in our lives.
School starts in almost a month. I'm freaking out. I can't wait for this year to start. Only thing is, I have volleyball tryouts in a week and I'm not ready in the least bit. It's going to kick my ass butt. The classes I'm taking this year are simply awesome. I am mostly looking forward to my Hon. Forensic Chemistry, Hon. Physics, and AP History classes. Even though they will be a lot of work, I still am excited about the whole shabang. I also can't believe I'm going to be SCA Vice President this year. Planning Homecoming is going to be a blast. I just hope I can get the perfect HC dress to go.
My birthday is in 33 days! I'm super hype. I was originally going to have a party, but I can't now that we don't have very sufficient funds. Oh well... I'll get over it. I am really curious to see if a certain someone wishes me a "happy birthday" considering all the crap that has happened in the past year. If I don't I will not be surprised. The guy acts like he doesn't want me in life life, period. If he doesn't, fine. Have it your way, dude. I am done fighting an ever-losing battle with you.


"If I never see you again, it's your problem. I've made the effort. Now it's your turn."


Ohh, and CLICK on the title. It'll take you to a really cute video. (:



Here are some photos from the school:
From left to right -
Le'Roger, Kamahn, Ernest, Tzion, Jaila, me
Efrain,Naahjae, Jakobe, Terrell, Hunter, Chris
<3
Chris <3
Jakobe <3
L M Butler

Friday, July 8, 2011

Mind made up

Wow, I feel like it's been forever since I've posted something. As always, I'm busy doing other things and I don't get a chance to log on to my computer. Oh well, whatever. Here's what's been up...
At the end of June I went to a Leadership Institute thingy-ma-jig. It's basically a three day camp where you learn how to become an even better leader. It was such a joke. The first and third day were a lot of fun, but the second day was awful. We had to sit from 9a. until 5p. listening to two stupid people talk about discrimination and core values. I just wanted to fall asleep. So, I put my shades on and closed my eyes. Hah. Terrible, I know. However, it was so boring that I wanted to beat my head on the floor. Thank God I had had my morning coffee. That bad - really. I kid you not.
I've started working again at the summer school program at Marguerite Christian again. This year it's second graders. They listen OK, but some have awful attitudes. Most of them can't even spell their name, and they are going into the third grade. That is just sad... Very sad. Dealing with kids that can not even write a complete sentence - and are supposed to be able to- is so very difficult. It is so stressful.
It has been raining like crazy here the past few days. My yard is flooded and several trees have fallen down. I love the rain, but not when it is trying to kill me. Ya know?
The other night, I went to River's Bend Grill with my mom. We had the cutest waiter ever. So was tall, handsome, had sexy facial hair, great built body - the works. Mom and I decided to play "The Waiter Game". It's where we try to guess how old the waiter is and see if they are material I would be interested in. Mother guessed 22 and I guessed 24. When I finally asked him his age, he said 27. He looked so much younger and I was really disappointed. Before I walked out, he turned around and I asked me how old I was. I asked him, "Well, how old do you think I am?" He said, "21?", in a 'please' tone. Hahah. You wish, man.
Here lately I have been on this sushi frenzy. That's all I've been eating for almost every meal. It's crazy. I'm not complaining though because doing so has caused me to lose 10 lbs. Hah. Which is quite awesome.
My friend Dale left for Basic Training yesterday. I wish him the best. I am going to miss him so much. I know he will be great. He's the best. Also, my "best friend" leaves in about a month and same goes for him. I hope they both do well and enjoy the lives ahead of them. Sadly, I don't know that I'll keep in touch with either of them.
The London 2012 trip has been cancelled. I'm so devastated. It sucks monkey nuts. Major monkey nuts. I was really looking forward to going on that amazing trip, but now it's ruined. Awesome... Just fucking fantastic.
I've decided that I'm going to do the early application for the University of Michigan. I am so so so so excited. I really hope that I get a scholarship for the Aerospace Engineering program or something. That would be amazing. However, if all else fails, I will apply for the University of Virginia. I would be content with that too. I would prefer to go to U of M though... I'm really looking forward to going to college, even though I sort of like high school. This coming year is going to be the greatest. All of the classes I'm taking are going to be pretty cool and all of the clubs I'm an officer in are going to be tons of fun.
My birthday is coming up and I have no idea what to do. I want a party, but everything I want is way too expensive. We just can't afford it. Honestly, even if I had one, I don't think many people would come. My friends are assholes sometimes.
Speaking of friends, my best friend Kelsey and I pretty much gave up on our friendship the other night. We have been best friends since the fifth grade. I love her to death and she's like a sister to me. We have always had each other's backs and always hang out. Sadly, we have kind of developed different ideas on totally opposite spectrums and it just doesn't meet in the middle anymore. Over the years, her and I both have grown up and grown out of old habits and styles. Our personalities haven't changed, but our mind sets have. We have seriously different goals and it just came down to the fact that we have grown out of each other. Get what I mean? Time just withered our friendship away. It upsets me a lot to not be friends with her anymore, just because we were so close. On the other hand, it's good to be moving on with my life and her moving on with hers.
I got to thinking the other day, and I noticed I have not really "dated" someone in a while. Yeeeaahhh, there is "best friend", but that's getting old and he is leaving anyway. A guy and I have been talking and we both are at the point of where we want to be referred to as an item. However, my mom doesn't like the idea - at all. All because of one thing. He's not white. My parents are not racist or anything, and I certainly am not. OK, yeah I make a joke here and there, but I don't discriminate against anyone because they are not white. Whatever. In the end, it's my decision.


This summer has been going pretty swell. All I need, is a trip.


L M Butler

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Bro, she's a hoe

Last day in English with Mrs. Holdell
You know, here lately I haven't wanted to get on the computer very much. Probably because I've been spending all-nighters and crap because of school. I feel like I've been neglecting my blog. Hah. Oh well, it's summertime now. Bring it on.
Graduation is done and over with. Congratulations to the TDHS class of 2011. I didn't cry at all, unlike last year. (But we all know why that was) I even surprised myself. Hah. Everyone in the orchestra whooped for Dale B. He looked so spiffy. And my best friend looked amazing. I couldn't be happier for him. I hope he enjoys what is in store for him. I know he'll be great.
I'm finally done with school, for now. My exams were beyond easy. I don;t know why I fretted them. Hah, however this summer is going to be crazy. I'm teaching again, but this year it's second graders. God, please help me. Hah. I also have to start all of my grant and scholarship applications. First two on the list, University of Virginia and University of Michigan. I'm hype, but a little scared.
Other interesting things right now are... I have poison ivy again. Again! I hate this crap with a passion. I just want to torch it all. Also, I have a date tomorrow night. I really don't want to go but I feel like it would be mean to stand him up. I'm too nice sometimes. Ya know? Whatever. I'll probably just tell him I'm sick or something then block his number. HAH! Sorry, brah. That's mean, I know. However, I really don't care. I'm really not interested in dating anyone right now. After the last two guys, I don't want another break up like that. I'd rather just have a friend with a little something more. Hah. I know you're probably thinking, "Wow, man. She's a hoe." But no, I'm not. You and your little naughty school girl fantasies need to get a room.
I want next summer to hurry up and be here already. I can't wait to go to London for the Olympics. Hell, I'm not even having a sweet 16 party this year because of the cost of the trip. Oh well. Beggars can't be choosers. I haven't had a party in forever though, so I guess it doesn't matter. What I really want to do, is go to Longstreet's with a few friends for dinner. That'd be even better. 


So, here lately I've been addicted to Twitter. You twiggas out there should follow me - DanceInTeRain
:)


L M Butler

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

On my level

To start off, Prom was amazing. Even though it was in the gym, it was so much fun. All the girls, Brandon, and I went to take pictures then only Lindsey, Morgan, Berkeley, Brandon, and I went to dinner at Uno's. I was so happy that I only spent $4.19 on dinner. Hah. Kids meal all the way. Our group was the first on the dance floor. It was awkward at first but then other people joined us and it was pretty cool. The DJ was pretty good, and the PTSA did an amazing job at decorating. It didn't even look like a gym. Brandon and I danced from the minute we got there at 8p. until the DJ played the last song at 11:30p. We were so tired, but we still went to after prom. The entire night was amazing, even if it didn't go as planned. I can't wait for next year.
Color Guard is so much fun. I'm so glad I finally decided to try out. Only thing is, I pulled my quadricep and I don't think I can go to practice tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be able to try out next Wednesday. Otherwise, I'll just play volleyball next year.
Senioritis is kicking my ass butt. I don't want to do anything whatsoever. I have six papers to write by Tuesday and I haven't even started the books. I'm screwed. 
The best friend and I are getting along again. I'm so glad considering graduation is almost here. I didn't want us to leave on a bad note, and he doesn't either. Like he said, "It's the end." Hah. But I'll see him again. Unlike somebody else... We might have our fights and fair share of bullshit, but in the end we're good friends. Nobody understands it, not even us. Oh well.
I'm hype for summer. I just want to go to the beach and chill. Plus I get to see some old seniors again since almost a year ago. I'm looking forward to catching up with them. I hope this summer is better than the last.

Here are a couple extra Prom 2011 photos...
my hair
dinner
top of the dress
L M Butler

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Pickups and letdowns

Best overall
Phew. This month is kicking my butt. I've got too much to do. Haha. At least I'm not bored to tears.
Busch Gardens was this past weekend! It was so much fun. I stayed with Michael, Amanda, Shannon, and Brandon the whole day. We did awesome at festival even though Mr. Johnston couldn't figure out how to get off stage and forgot which song we were on. Hah! But both orchestras got first place in their division and over all best orchestra in the competition.
Prom is next weekend and I'm really looking forward to it. My dress is so pretty and my date, Brandon, is the best. He's such a sweetheart. I'm so excited to get to chill with him for two weekends in a row. I'm waiting to see how this gym will look... Mrs. Zoller says it's going to be pretty cool, but we'll see.
Graduation is almost here. I'm so sad about it. So many of my friends are leaving and I don't want them to. Although it's a little funny how "best friend" is getting mad that I'm becoming good friends with Dale and saying that I'll miss him a lot. Jealous much? Possibly. I'll miss them both, but not as much as someone who already left.
I took my Chemistry SOL today. It was so easy. I don't know why I freaked out over it. Now I have my math one next week. I'm just hoping to pass that one. Haha.
Color Guard tryouts are next week. I'm nervous. A lot of people keep telling me the girls are bitchy as hell, but I'll form my own opinion on that one. I know there's one girl I don't particularly like, but oh well.
Otherwise, I'm really getting tired of guys letting me down. Ya know? It really sucks. I really hate the "I like you a lot, but nothing is going to happen between us unless it benefits me." line. Prick. I'm so close to slapping the hell out of that dude that it's not even funny. Whatever though. I haven't dated someone in almost a year and so I don't think I'll date anyone until college. I guess I really shouldn't care, eh? My friend said, "Just give it time..."


L M Butler

Monday, May 9, 2011

Better than expected

The set list
One week down, three to go. May is packed full of fun but crazy things to do. I'm looking forward to summer...
Rock 4 Life was this past Saturday. The concert went better than I anticipated, actually. Everyone did pretty good. We played a lot of great songs this year. The basses killed it in Come Together and the audience loved it. Some things about it were less than impressive, but nothing is perfect. Two things that really pissed me off though was the photographer and the "Thank You's". About the photographer, I'm sorry, but maybe we should try someone different next year. The man who took the concert photos singled out certain people and took like 20 pictures of them. Seriously, what a joke. That's not fair to everyone. Especially the seniors who really wanted to be included in them. Professional my ass butt. However, the photos be took of those... Twelve out of 78+ different people were pretty good... And about the "Thank You's", some people weren't given enough credit for what they did do. Poor "best friend". He busted his ass for Tech. set up, and barely received any credit for anything. Some people had their "work" blown out of proportion and it wasn't fair to the people that worked just as hard as they did. Yet, those people were hardly mentioned in the Thank You brochure. But, whatever. What's done is done. Let's move on to R4L 2012.
Anywho, speaking of Orchestra, Busch Gardens competition is this weekend. I'm excited. Although Mr. J failed to mention it's Gay Pride weekend. Dear Lord, man. Of all weekends. Hah. But it doesn't bother me. I just find it amusing. I'm still excited to be going, period. And I get to spend the night at Amanda's the night before. So, win win.
Prom is almost here! Only two more weeks. I went to get my dress altered today. It was the first time my mom got to see it on me and she cried. Haha. I adore the dress, and when it gets taken in some more, it'll look better on me. Even the one person I though wouldn't like it, did. And that made me very happy to have his opinion, and for it to be a good one.
Graduation is coming up so very quickly. It's starting to hit me, hard. I'm going to miss so many people. So many great people. Between Dale, Rochelle, Mandi, Kate F., Carter, Joel, Ellynn, Maya, and so many others, I'm going to be a basket case. Oh boy... Hah. I love them all.
School wise, it's calm. The year is winding down and SOLs are coming these next three weeks. I'm just leaning back and sleeping in some classes. There's not much else I want to do. Plenty I could, but hey... I busted my butt all year until now. I think I deserve naps.
Home life is good. My parents are sort of pissed about the whole prom thing. It' ended up being a big expense. Between my ticket, dress, shoes, jewelry, hair, nails - the whole shabang; it's expensive as all get out. I'm paying for my dinner though with the little bit of money I made of the Mother's Day holiday.
I'm really getting back into my little grumpy funk, again. It sucks. I really dislike being sad over stupid crap that happened forever ago, but my heart/mind doesn't forget, it only forgives. I just need bitchslap myself and move along. There's not much more I can do. Not to be a Debbie Downer, but life's a bummer at times. Memories of certain things never fade. I just hope I can make some that are even better than those, soon.


L M Butler

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Get it over with

Spring Break is over. Sadly. It went by way too quickly. It sucked. Towards the end of it though, I went to see my aunt Trish. We passed through Farmville and made a pit stop at LU. It was really nice and pretty swell. Trish's boyfriend brought over his granddaughter and she was just plain adorable. She wouldn't leave me alone though. I like kids, but not when they cling to me and slobber on me like a dog.
Prom is coming up. I just got my ticket today. I'm so excited. I have the sweetest date ever. Hah. My dress is beautiful. However, I have to take it to get it altered next week. I'm too much of a shorty, even with heels. Being 5'4" really has it's disadvantages at times. Daddy offered to pay to get my hair and nails done with the girls, so that's a bonus. I think he's almost more excited than I am... HAH.
In other news, Rock 4 Life is in NINE days! Oh my Lord, I've never been so stressed. Mr. J is being brutal. We had a rehearsal yesterday and he yelled at pretty much everyone and kicked one person out. It's crazy. He's been a grumpy butt here lately. Hopefully after R4L is over, he'll ease up because we have Busch Gardens to look forward to and he doesn't have to worry about graduation.
Speaking of graduation, that's coming up really fast, too. I have even more friends leaving this year who I'm even closer to. Last year was sad but this year is going to be even worse. Then again, some of them will be good to get rid of. A good amount of the seniors this year are annoying as all get out. Sometimes I just want to shove a sock in their mouths.
May is SOL month, or Standards of Learning testing. Personally I refer to it as the Shit-Out-of-Luck test, but they're easy to pass. I feel bad for the suckers that fail it. Taking a final exam is always worse. Seniors have a major advantage though. All they have to do is have a B- or better in a class and they exempt their finals for that class. I wish they gave that to Juniors too, at least. Oh well.
So, I love how when I try to avoid someone, they follow me. Really, punk? Screw off. I really really dislike it when people can't take the hint to go away. It's one thing if it's over text because sometimes that's a bit difficult to comprehend; however, when somebody can't get it in person, they need to be slapped or something. Stupid people annoy me.


Lil' miss Awbrey

L M Butler

Saturday, April 16, 2011

ALMOST there

I adore the month of April because of the age old, "April showers bring May flowers" thing. I love rainy days.
Spring Break is finally here. Thank God. I'm so glad I finally have a week's break from school. Only problem is, I have so much work to do over the break that it's not going to be all that relaxing. Between work teachers gave me, going to NC next weekend (Yay! Get hype!), and R4L things with Jeanine and Kate I'm booked. Hah. I was hoping I'd get to see a certain someone, but for him to drive two hours to visit for only an hour would be a waste. I'll get to see him this summer though, hopefully.
Anywho, Rock 4 Life is coming up in 3 weeks. Only 3 weeks. It's major crunch time and everyone is so excited. Everything is going to be awesome but the only thing that's a bit of a downfall is our cause. It just doesn't compare to last years "child soldiers" and "child advocacy". I still think we should have done human trafficking... But bleh. Whatever.
Speaking of music, I made Jazz Band. I decided to try out to get away from Orchestra next year. I'm pissed Mr. J didn't want to put me in Chamber because he wants me to "mentor" a freshman. Ugh. Sad thing is, I don't know that I'll take JB even though I got in. Poor Brandon is a little mad I made it and he didn't I think... If I don't take the class, he'll take my spot.
School-wise, I have a 101.1% in history class. That's never happened before. I have a strong suit of science and math, and history is usually brutal for me. However, some how I've pulled a 101.1% out my ass butt and I couldn't be more pleased.
This school year is going by so fast. It's already the last quarter. I can't believe it. There's only... 7 or 8 more weeks left I believe. Hah. I was talking to a friend of mine who's in college now and they're like, "I only have three more weeks of school left :)." I was thinking, "Jerk.... So not fair." But May will go by really fast because it's SOL and exam month. Plus R4L, Busch Gardens trip for orchestra, prom; all that good stuff. I'm hype.
Anyway, you know how when you get back into old bands and types of music after a while, again? Well, I went to look for some old CD's so I could play them in the car because I haven't quite invested in a new stereo system in the old junker. I open all the cases and all of them are there except my favorite one by Bullet For My Valentine. I was so mad. Then I remembered I'd left it in a friend's car almost a year ago. I hope they haven't lost it or something. That'd ruin my day. However, I still have my I See Stars and AttackAttack! ones. So, that's a bonus.


CHECK THIS OUT. It's so hilarious you'll pee your pants. If you can't watch it here, click on the title and it'll take you there.



L M Butler

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Don't hate, participate

Oh my, such a long past few weeks it has been. I'm busy as always but I don't expect any less. I'd rather work too much than not enough.
Anywho, so Rock 4 Life is only 32 days away! Everyone is working their asses butts off trying to get everything ready. Between the meetings every Monday night and Friday afternoon, we're able to manage. We're making a R4L Yearbook and it's turning out pretty cool. I'm actually suppose to be writing something for it at this moment, but I'm preoccupied by my own blog. Shame on me, I know. I also made a seating chart of the entire TDHS auditorium. Oh my Lord, it took forever to do 1/3 of it and I'm still not done. However, it looks amazing (just saying). Check out the Rock4Life crew and concert.
In other riveting news, my latest addition has been Bdubs. I've gone there twice a week for the past four weeks. The place is amazing. If you've never been there, you need to go. And don't pull the, "Well, I live in Ethiopia and we don't have those here." Too bad, get on a plane and go to Buffalo Wild Wings. Excuses are for wimps.
So, the 30 Day Challenge has ended for me. However, still go check it out if you haven't already. I've had people say to me, "Really? You put that person in it?" Yeah, really. I did. Some things are on there because I couldn't think of anything else to put that I had a photo of. Honestly, just get over it. If anyone has some off-the-wall problem with it, I honestly don't give a flying frigg'. It's my blog for a reason. I'm sure you can appreciate that. Remember, it's on the right side bar under "Check it out!".
On another note, school is driving me crazy. Two of my teachers just flat out suck and the one won't stop being a Debbie-Downer about everything. Orchestra is the class that is agitating me the most though. Mr. J asked me to basically mentor a freshman who's coming to Dale next year, and I think it's bogus. In other words, he wants to stick me in Concert and listen to me bitch complain about how awful I think the class is. Again. Personally, I think he just doesn't care for me. Whatever. I'm thinking about taking Jazz Band with Mr. Barton instead. Just to get away from being in Concert for another year. The music is too easy, which is the only reason I just chill in that class. Oh well, only 7 more weeks.
Speaking of classes, Mr. Duncan's class is just getting better and better. I realize I somewhat favor this teacher, but I don't care. If you were to attend just one class, you'd understand where I'm coming from. For example, we mocked how Russia should take the aids from the United States. Also, how one should contain red Kool-aid in a bowl. One may ask, how does this relate to history? Good question. He teaches us valuable lessons on why somebody shouldn't speed near deaf  kids because they can't hear the horn to run away, and how to dispose of bodies in a proper fashion. Somehow, he always brings it back on topic. Best. Class. Ever.
Remember how I said that Orchestra wasn't going to Disney? Well, now I'm glad we didn't because all that came out of that trip was drama. Dag on. Those choir people really know how to start some crap. The hilarious thing was though, people were betting about who was going to start something while they were there. Even a few chorus people said to me, "The people in chorus are snobs. I'm glad to have peace for a few days." Hah, awesome to be a back stabber, eh?
I'm to the point of counting days for London. I'm beyond excited. It's... 452 days until I leave? Something of that nature I'm thinking... It's the only thing I'm looking forward to at this point. Except for a certain someone coming down for a bit this summer. I can't wait to see him. He's the greatest.


This is what I need. Fast forward to 0:33. Operation: Ending Skankdom. It'll save lives people, or just help not create them. Also, I'd recommend not watching the whole thing. It gets annoying, heads up.


L M Butler

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

High and dry

I know for us here day light savings just kicked in, but the days are feeling shorter. I guess I'm just so slammed with crap to do that it doesn't feel like time is passing by. Oh well, the faster it goes by the better. I want 2012 to get here already. LONDON! Woot woot!
So, I've been driving for a little over three weeks now, and I'm steady scaring the piss out of my mother. It's hilarious. I'll purposely cut a curb too close or what not just to piss her off. I can't wait to drive to North Carolina in a few weeks. It's a four hour drive from one door to the other of each house. That'll be one heck of a trip...
So, I'm getting really disappointed with Orchestra. It's sad. For example, the "every 2 year" trip for Chorus and Band is to Orlando, Florida. For Theatre and Dance, it's to NYC. For Orchestra, it's Busch Gardens... Really?! Pathetic. Not even out of the state, man. But, whatever. At least we're maybe going somewhere, and I love BG. I always have a great time. And this year I'll be with Brandon and Amanda. That's just asking for mischief. Hah.
Speaking of Orchestra, we're about five weeks away from the Rock 4 Life concert. Deadlines are coming up quicker and quicker and nobody is doing much of anything. Some people say they'll help, but they never come through. Whatever. And the Pancake Breakfast is at the end of April over Spring Break and I can't go. I'll admit, I'm a lil' pissed I can't be there, but I'll be in NC. So, no biggie.
School wise, I got a thing in the mail the other day saying, "Congratulations! You've been nominated to be in the NSHSS!" All because I have a GPA of a 3.89. Dweeb? I think so. Overachiever? Not really. Getting into UVA? Hopefully. Wish me luck.
So, about school. I've noticed there are a lot of... Loose girls where I go. And I use that term nicely. There are plenty other more vulgar words I'd rather use. Seriously. If I see one more pregnant girl, I'm going to be sick. And almost everyday I hear from a friend of mine, "Guess who screwed who now!" Really dude? Do you keep tabs on this shit crap? May I say, "NO LIFE"? It's just gross. Not to mention the couples that break up once a week, then get back together by the end of the day. What a shame. All the more reason why graduation should hurry up. I don't care for many of the people I have to deal with under a day-to-day basis. However, I will never like all of them, ever.
More specifically, history class wise. Mr. Duncan said today, "Hitler convinced them to 'Not get in bed with the U.S. because they'll leave you high and dry.' Which makes a lot of sense when you think about it." I was stunned. I'd never heard a teacher incorporate something so... risqué yet make such great sense. Good term, but interesting use. It'll be something I'll remember, that's for sure. Haha.
In other news, what's with everybody enlisting here lately? Three guys I know are leaving in August in the Navy, and another I'm pretty fond of is leaving in August too for the Army. I'm sad they're leaving because they're all great guys, but I'm glad to see the one go. Cruel, I know, but hey. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. Although the guy leaving for the Army won't be home until Christmas. Which really sucks because I'll miss him a lot.
Lastly, the 30 Day Challenge is almost over for me. I'll probably do something similar to it later on this year. However, for now, check out the 30 Day Challenge blog. You can find the link on the right side bar.


L M Butler