Honesty is the best policy

School has started and we hit the ground running. I had three papers due, three quizzes, and two tests, ALREADY. It's week two people! Stupid AP and honors classes. It's not too bad I guess, I'm just lazy. Senioritis has set in like crazy. However, I also noticed that CCPS gave us more days off this year. Which is pretty awesome. We also have this stupid thing called "Enrichment Period" instead of Friday Focus. I actually like it, a lottttt. It gives me forty-five minutes to do the homework I didn't complete the night before. Haha, yes I'm so over the whole school thing.
It is getting chilly here in the VA. Fall is approaching and it feels great. I love the Fall season. I feel so bad for countries that don't have more than one or two seasons.
So, about that guy and I. Yeah, it's too far gone. Somebody started rumors and they got to him. He flipped bananas on me and now refuses to notice I exist. Hah, really? I hate it when people automatically believe rumors and don't let the other person defend themselves. No, you don't have to believe me, but you at least owe me the chance to explain my side. If he was any type of good friend, in my opinion, he would. If not, nothing lost, eh? I can't believe it is only two weeks into the school year and bitches are already starting drama, mostly Seniors at that. Really? Grow up, forreal.
So far Dale has lost the first two games of the football season. The whole team is really down about it. Next Friday is the first home game, so hopefully that will go better. It's against Petersburg, so I doubt it honestly... There's going to be a pep rally before the game, too. So maybe that will boost the guy's confidence and help them win. I'm excited to go see them play. I think it will be a good, possibly close game. And I get to see Demetrick too.
I'm really looking forward to December. I not only get my license, but I also get my braces off. I'm so excited. I also take my SAT on December 3rd. That I'm not too hype about. On the other hand, I'm excited to apply for college this coming May.
College is another story. I'm still applying for Univer. of Mich. and UVA, but not for Aerospace Engineering. I've decided that getting a degree in Mechanical Engineering with a focus on Aerospace would get me farther in the long run. Then again, at this point, I would rather just go study something random, like Psychology. Then again, I would shoot myself is I were a therapist. I have enough problems of my own, and I don't want to listen to other people's for a living. Harsh? A little, maybe. At least I'm honest.


L M Butler

The basic bitchez wear that shit, so I don't even bother

My new friend

This summer is already almost over. Two weeks from tomorrow and it is back to the old grind. I'm excited but I'm not. I still have to finish my summer assignments and all that hubbub. I wish that I had done more this summer, but whatever.
Speaking of things I've done this summer, at one point my mom, aunt, cousin, and I all went to the Natural Bridge Zoo. We had a blast. My mom wanted to go mainly to pet a baby tiger and get a picture of her and I holding it. There were two baby cubs the time we went. One was a bengal tiger named Apollo and a white bengal tiger name Zeus. We ended up being able to hold Zeus and take our picture with him. He was a heavy little thing. Haha. We also visited the drive-thru zoo that was near Natural Bridge. That was hilarious. All of the animals were sticking their heads in the car and spitting food everywhere. My mother got her little food bucket taken away by one of the camels. It scared the crap out of her. Hah. It wasn't exactly my idea of a vacation but it was something to do. I ended up making friends with one of the giraffes.
So, the guy that I was talking to and really liked has almost completely stopped talking to me. Now that football season has started, he barely has time to even text me. I also really pissed him off the last time we hung out, so I'm thinking that maybe that also has something to do with it. Even though that mess was almost three weeks ago. Really? Get over what I said and move on. I sincerely apologized and I would take it back if I could. Whatever... Guys seem to always end up disliking me for whatever reason possible. I always fuck screw up good things before I get to enjoy them. I have terrible guilt, so I feel really bad. I just miss talking to him, ya know? I hope that he starts talking to me again at least once school starts. However, I don't want to end up dating a guy who doesn't have time for a girlfriend. Been there, dealt with that bullshit; NEVER again. I may not deserve the best, but I deserve better than that.
My best friend left about a week ago for the Navy. He came over the day before he left to say goodbye. I wasn't expecting him to, but I was really excited to see him one last time. It meant a lot that he took time from his busy schedule to spend a fews hours with me. He and I no longer have that awkward tension between us of the, "Are we friends? Or more than friends?" thing. I love him to death, but as nothing more than a friend. And I think he finally realizes that. I'm so surprised that our friendship wasn't ruined by everything that has happened over the past two years. I don't think I could have survived these past two without him there sometimes. Then again, he was a big problem himself. Oh well, he's gone now. I probably won't see him much, if at all, for the next eight years. So, farewell. <3
So, I was going to try out for volleyball but... Yeah. I went the first day and tore my quad muscle. Yep, I'm a clutz. What can I say? I was only able to go the one day, so obviously I didn't make the team. I think it would have been too much anyway. With holding two offices, three clubs, Rock4Life, AP classes, and only one "easy-breezy" class this year, I would have gone crazy. Like a friend of mine pointed out, it would have overloaded me and I would fail at everything because I would be doing too much. So, I guess it was a blessing in disguise? Hah. At least that's how I am having to look at it. 
Not much else is really happening for me right now. I've been at home mostly, trying to get all of my crap straight for school and just my life in general. I'm trying to figure out everything I need so that I can apply for college here soon and get that mess going. I'm back to contemplating what major I'd like to study again. I'm interested in Aerospace Engineering, but I want to do something on a worldly scale. Something that I could do anywhere in the world, while learning about other cultures and lifestyles. I change my mind a lot, I know. I just get bored with the same thing over and over.


"Life moves fast. Sometimes you have to step back and take a look or else you'll miss it."


L M Butler

WEEZY F. BABY!

So, as I said in my last post, I went to a Lil Wayne concert on the 30th of August. It was amazing. It featured the Far East Movement, Keri Hilson, Rick Ross (Ricky Rozzay), Young Money, Mack Mane, and (of course) Lil Tunechi. I took pictures of the whole concert like a crazy person. I also recorded videos, but in the background you can hear me screaming and singing as if I were tone deaf. Hahaha. I kid you not. The concert was really a last minute plan. Lindsey called me on Friday night and said, "So, spend the night at my house tonight, go to VA Beach with me tomorrow, then a Weezy concert, then come home Sunday." I said, "Well, alrighty! On my way over." Hahaha. So, I went and spent the night at her house and then her sister, Ashley, and her friend Lena picked us up Saturday morning. We hit the beach for the day and chilled at the Hilton Sky Bar. The Hilton hotel was beyond fabulous. We headed for the concert around 6p. and it started at 7p. Everyone performed in the order as I listed them above. Lil Wayne was the best of all. He is such an amazing entertainer. I really hope I get to see him LIVE again.

Lil Wayne <3 - "Sorry 4 The Wait"

Weezy <3 - "Sorry 4 The Wait"

Far East Movement !

Keri Hilson !

Ricky Roozzzaaayy! "God Forgives, I Don't"

Lil Tunechi <3 "Sorry 4 The Wait"

L M Butler

Time flies when you're having fun

Little Terrell

I feel like it has been forever since I've posted. Geez. I could've sworn it was June yesterday. Anywho...
So, today was the last day of teaching summer school at MCES. After about the second week or so, some of the kids stopped coming. This one kid, Josh, was obnoxious as shit crap. When he didn't come for the last week, I was so excited. I hate to say it, but I am glad I never have to see that child again. Most of the kids were really adorable. There was one kid named Terrell and he was the cutest little thing ever. He was barely over three feet tall and the most polite child ever. Some of the kids, I will actually miss.
So, this past weekend I went to a Weezy concert. It was AMAZING! Probably the best concert I have ever been to. I'll make an entire post about it in a few minutes.
So, this guy and I are really hitting it off. He is so sweet. I miss having a relationship with somebody that's more than a friendship. I just wish people were not so harsh about this guy and I dating. He sort of has a bad reputation with girls. However, I'm willing to give him the benefit of the doubt. I just really hope I don't get labeled as a whore for dating this guy. We shall see...
"Best friend" leaves in a little less than two weeks. He and I have barely talked since school let out. I'm not necessarily surprised considering we've grown apart, but I am a little disappointed. He seems to be full of broken promises, yet again. Whatever. I refuse to let him get me down. I'm to the point of where I am above that.
I must say, the past two weeks of my Summer have been the best. I've gotten along with my family great, I have a boyfriend that isn't a dick, teaching went well, I went to the best concert ever, and so much more. It feels great to be happy. It really does.
So, the coolest thing happened the other day. I found my elementary school best friend on Facebook. It made my day. I haven't talked to him in almost 9 years, but we picked up a conversation like it was just yesterday in third grade. I absolutely love catching up with old friends. I can't wait to have lunch with him one day soon and get up to date on everything in our lives.
School starts in almost a month. I'm freaking out. I can't wait for this year to start. Only thing is, I have volleyball tryouts in a week and I'm not ready in the least bit. It's going to kick my ass butt. The classes I'm taking this year are simply awesome. I am mostly looking forward to my Hon. Forensic Chemistry, Hon. Physics, and AP History classes. Even though they will be a lot of work, I still am excited about the whole shabang. I also can't believe I'm going to be SCA Vice President this year. Planning Homecoming is going to be a blast. I just hope I can get the perfect HC dress to go.
My birthday is in 33 days! I'm super hype. I was originally going to have a party, but I can't now that we don't have very sufficient funds. Oh well... I'll get over it. I am really curious to see if a certain someone wishes me a "happy birthday" considering all the crap that has happened in the past year. If I don't I will not be surprised. The guy acts like he doesn't want me in life life, period. If he doesn't, fine. Have it your way, dude. I am done fighting an ever-losing battle with you.


"If I never see you again, it's your problem. I've made the effort. Now it's your turn."


Ohh, and CLICK on the title. It'll take you to a really cute video. (:

Here are some photos from the school:

From left to right -
Le'Roger, Kamahn, Ernest, Tzion, Jaila, me
Efrain,Naahjae, Jakobe, Terrell, Hunter, Chris
<3

Chris <3

Jakobe <3

L M Butler

Mind made up

Wow, I feel like it's been forever since I've posted something. As always, I'm busy doing other things and I don't get a chance to log on to my computer. Oh well, whatever. Here's what's been up...
At the end of June I went to a Leadership Institute thingy-ma-jig. It's basically a three day camp where you learn how to become an even better leader. It was such a joke. The first and third day were a lot of fun, but the second day was awful. We had to sit from 9a. until 5p. listening to two stupid people talk about discrimination and core values. I just wanted to fall asleep. So, I put my shades on and closed my eyes. Hah. Terrible, I know. However, it was so boring that I wanted to beat my head on the floor. Thank God I had had my morning coffee. That bad - really. I kid you not.
I've started working again at the summer school program at Marguerite Christian again. This year it's second graders. They listen OK, but some have awful attitudes. Most of them can't even spell their name, and they are going into the third grade. That is just sad... Very sad. Dealing with kids that can not even write a complete sentence - and are supposed to be able to- is so very difficult. It is so stressful.
It has been raining like crazy here the past few days. My yard is flooded and several trees have fallen down. I love the rain, but not when it is trying to kill me. Ya know?
The other night, I went to River's Bend Grill with my mom. We had the cutest waiter ever. So was tall, handsome, had sexy facial hair, great built body - the works. Mom and I decided to play "The Waiter Game". It's where we try to guess how old the waiter is and see if they are material I would be interested in. Mother guessed 22 and I guessed 24. When I finally asked him his age, he said 27. He looked so much younger and I was really disappointed. Before I walked out, he turned around and I asked me how old I was. I asked him, "Well, how old do you think I am?" He said, "21?", in a 'please' tone. Hahah. You wish, man.
Here lately I have been on this sushi frenzy. That's all I've been eating for almost every meal. It's crazy. I'm not complaining though because doing so has caused me to lose 10 lbs. Hah. Which is quite awesome.
My friend Dale left for Basic Training yesterday. I wish him the best. I am going to miss him so much. I know he will be great. He's the best. Also, my "best friend" leaves in about a month and same goes for him. I hope they both do well and enjoy the lives ahead of them. Sadly, I don't know that I'll keep in touch with either of them.
The London 2012 trip has been cancelled. I'm so devastated. It sucks monkey nuts. Major monkey nuts. I was really looking forward to going on that amazing trip, but now it's ruined. Awesome... Just fucking fantastic.
I've decided that I'm going to do the early application for the University of Michigan. I am so so so so excited. I really hope that I get a scholarship for the Aerospace Engineering program or something. That would be amazing. However, if all else fails, I will apply for the University of Virginia. I would be content with that too. I would prefer to go to U of M though... I'm really looking forward to going to college, even though I sort of like high school. This coming year is going to be the greatest. All of the classes I'm taking are going to be pretty cool and all of the clubs I'm an officer in are going to be tons of fun.
My birthday is coming up and I have no idea what to do. I want a party, but everything I want is way too expensive. We just can't afford it. Honestly, even if I had one, I don't think many people would come. My friends are assholes sometimes.
Speaking of friends, my best friend Kelsey and I pretty much gave up on our friendship the other night. We have been best friends since the fifth grade. I love her to death and she's like a sister to me. We have always had each other's backs and always hang out. Sadly, we have kind of developed different ideas on totally opposite spectrums and it just doesn't meet in the middle anymore. Over the years, her and I both have grown up and grown out of old habits and styles. Our personalities haven't changed, but our mind sets have. We have seriously different goals and it just came down to the fact that we have grown out of each other. Get what I mean? Time just withered our friendship away. It upsets me a lot to not be friends with her anymore, just because we were so close. On the other hand, it's good to be moving on with my life and her moving on with hers.
I got to thinking the other day, and I noticed I have not really "dated" someone in a while. Yeeeaahhh, there is "best friend", but that's getting old and he is leaving anyway. A guy and I have been talking and we both are at the point of where we want to be referred to as an item. However, my mom doesn't like the idea - at all. All because of one thing. He's not white. My parents are not racist or anything, and I certainly am not. OK, yeah I make a joke here and there, but I don't discriminate against anyone because they are not white. Whatever. In the end, it's my decision.


This summer has been going pretty swell. All I need, is a trip.


L M Butler