The end is near

I feel like it's been forever since I've posted. Busy does not even describe my life anymore. I barely have time to breathe. Any time I get to relax, I sleep. I am just so exhausted with all of the work I have been doing. So, here's a bit of an update...


November:

Grayson

This was a great month. Busy, but great. I had a break over Thanksgiving and that was my time to relax. I hung out with the best guy ever and I really developed some serious feelings for him. We are not dating, but I wish we were.
Back around my moms birthday, my cat Samantha went outside and never came home. We ended up getting a new baby kitten name Grayson. It's not the same, but I'm adjusting.
The rest of this month is fuzzy to me.


December:

I was sick the entire month of December. It was miserable. I still somewhat had it leading into January too. I missed two exams because I could not function at all because of the medicine I was taking. I had a two week long break to recover from my sickness and relax.
I got to spend time with some amazing people and get to know this one guy a lot better. Slowly but surely, he's becoming a good friend of mine. A lot of things probably would have gone wrong had I not gotten to know him better when I did. Thanks a million Prevost. <3


January:

Welcome To My World
:)

Welcome 2012!


School wise, Busy busy busy busy busy. I have barely been able to catch my breath this month. With the end of the semester coming, teachers have piled tons of work on my head and it's making it miserable. Especially with missing school from being sick, it's just even more difficult to catch up.
Friend wise, it's been back and forth. There's a certain person that I became somewhat close to, but then they had one of their bipolar fits again. In other words, they are back to ignoring me and hating me because I would not give them what they wanted. The whole situation just annoys me... As for the guy I really became close to back in November, he and I are still friends. Now he has a "best friend", which it is completely obvious they are more than that. But, hey, whatever. We are not dating, so I shouldn't care. But he and I have been acting like this somewhat... Couple type figure. More than a friendship, less than a relationship. So, a flirtationship. He means the world to me, but it's obvious that the feeling is not mutual. It's disappointing from my end, but hey. Can't change what is. I just love spending time with him and he cheers me up, no matter what the situation is. He always makes me smile and laugh. His company makes me happy. Even though I never wanted to, I think I have fallen for this guy.
There have been a lot of friends gained and lost in the past year. Both amazing and horrible. I always hate losing friends over stupid matters, but it only makes me reconsider everything. I am, as I've said before, a firm believer that things happen for a reason. They always have and always will.
Graduation is getting closer and closer. All of the seniors are talking about beach week and going off to college. It will be so sad to see some of them leave, but I'm ready for this year to be over. I have a pretty good idea of who I will keep in touch with and who I will not. It's only about 15 people or so, but that's more than I expected. Once I go off to college, I probably will not talk to many people from my graduating class.
Prom is only 4 months away now! I'm excited. I got my dress back in August, so I don't have to bother with shopping for one. I am pretty much all set. Just, no date... ): Bummer. We shall see what happens as we get close to the actual evening itself.
I know it is only January, but I can't stop thinking about the summer. I just hope this summer lives up to last summer.
Here lately I have been going to the eye doctor a lot. I have high pressure on my eyes, and it is possible that I have an early onset of glaucoma. I have had some intense headaches too, which bring up the suspicion of another brain tumor. I go at the end of this month for more tests and an MRI. Hopefully there is no tumor or glaucoma. I pray there is nothing at all.


There is so much more I could write about, but it's all a blur. Hours feel like minutes, days feel like weeks. Weeks run together, time flies by. Hopefully I will have time to update before 3 months from now...


L M Butler

On my level

To start off, Prom was amazing. Even though it was in the gym, it was so much fun. All the girls, Brandon, and I went to take pictures then only Lindsey, Morgan, Berkeley, Brandon, and I went to dinner at Uno's. I was so happy that I only spent $4.19 on dinner. Hah. Kids meal all the way. Our group was the first on the dance floor. It was awkward at first but then other people joined us and it was pretty cool. The DJ was pretty good, and the PTSA did an amazing job at decorating. It didn't even look like a gym. Brandon and I danced from the minute we got there at 8p. until the DJ played the last song at 11:30p. We were so tired, but we still went to after prom. The entire night was amazing, even if it didn't go as planned. I can't wait for next year.

Color Guard is so much fun. I'm so glad I finally decided to try out. Only thing is, I pulled my quadricep and I don't think I can go to practice tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be able to try out next Wednesday. Otherwise, I'll just play volleyball next year.

Senioritis is kicking my ass butt. I don't want to do anything whatsoever. I have six papers to write by Tuesday and I haven't even started the books. I'm screwed. 

The best friend and I are getting along again. I'm so glad considering graduation is almost here. I didn't want us to leave on a bad note, and he doesn't either. Like he said, "It's the end." Hah. But I'll see him again. Unlike somebody else... We might have our fights and fair share of bullshit, but in the end we're good friends. Nobody understands it, not even us. Oh well.

I'm hype for summer. I just want to go to the beach and chill. Plus I get to see some old seniors again since almost a year ago. I'm looking forward to catching up with them. I hope this summer is better than the last.

Here are a couple extra Prom 2011 photos...

my hair

dinner

top of the dress

L M Butler

Simply sensational

I finally went on a nice, week long vacation.  It was a blast!  In the beach house, we had people from my hometown and over seas.  Our party consisted of my aunt Trish and her boyfriend Tim, my mom and I, my uncle Marty, my aunt Vicky and uncle Ed, my aunt Julia and my cousin Sara, my aunt Mags and uncle Danny, and last but not least, Trish and Julia's father Amos.  This was by far the best vacation I've ever had.  I'm so glad I got to meet the 'Brits' my mom and aunt Trish always talk about.  The only bad-sucky part about the trip was that the "Wifi" didn't work at all till the last day we were in the house.  Which means, no connection to the outer world other than the people I was staying with and anyone who worked anywhere we went.  Also, it was a bit shocking that anywhere in Kinnakeet, Rodanthe, or Avon that we went, the people who worked in the shops all had a Russian accent.  Considering Russia is about 5 countries and an ocean away, it's a little on the odd side of the spectrum.  All in all, I had a fantastic time, and I can't wait to go to the United Kingdom next summer. :)

Cheers mates!
L M Butler