Summer has begun and my heart has melted

Ode to summer's extreme weather, eh? In my "hood", it's a scorching 100 degrees outside. Ick. Although even though the bright, sunny sky's, I've been kinda down and blue. The man I loved the most broke my heart two weeks ago. The reason behind his madness was because "He works too much and is going to college and he feels we should call it quits", was his answer to my sobbing. I pleaded not to let me go, but he felt it was "for the best"... I've always thought that giving things a try would be worth the while, because then you can't say you didn't know what would happen. But in this case, he felt it'd end worse than what it already did. To this day, I love him with all my heart. I promised him I always would be his best friend and to love him forever and always, and I plan to keep this promise for as long as I live. Even though we're not an "item" anymore, I hope he will always remain in my life as my best friend, because he's just so amazing. :) Maybe time is all we need. For as Joe King and Isaac Slade from The Fray said, "You can never say never, while we don't know when, time, time, time again, younger now than we were before, don't let me go."

L M Butler

Zachary's graduation party

Yesterday, June 5th, was Zack's graduation party. Everyone had a fantastic time. Zack was really sweet to me the entire night, which I loved. :) And he kept in consideration that I had just gotten braces the day before his party. :( So I could barely eat ANYTHING except cake. Towards the end of the night, the party REALLY began to liven up. All the boys that were left (Eric Brugger, Derek Baily, Ronald Brown, and Zack Haefling) played "Smear the Queer". The gentlemen are exceptionally violent. Haha. Afterwards, Jenny Hoza and I joined them in a fews games of "Hide and Seek", which we played in complete darkness. Although, when Jen and I were 'it', we walked out the door to find the guys. Eric, Derek, and Zack all went running for the door, but I saw only Eric at the time. I decided to run back from where I came to tag Eric, but he didn't see me comming. Before I knew it, he tackled me and we were both on the ground laughing in pain. It was one of the highlights of the whole evening. After a few games of H&S, the few that were left stood around and talked about miscellaneous subjects while Zack's parents cleaned up the hall. When Zack brought me home around 12a., I gave him his presents. I got him a little white tiger to go with his "pet" dinosaur, Stegy, on his dashboard. I also bought him "Water Sabers"; I figured they were something he'd like. :) All in all, the party was major fun. I love spending time with my better half, and I'm so proud of him. :D I love you Zack Haefling.

L M Butler

June 12th is comming soon.. too soon..

Today was one of the last days I got to see my baby this morning before class, before he graduates on June 12th. I'm so excited I get to go and see him walk across the stage. :) Yet, as I've said before, I'm sad to see him leave me for my next 3 years of high school. He's such an amazing guy and he deserves the best in life. He works hard, and gets what he works for. Congratulations Zack, I'm honored to be your girlfriend.

L M Butler