The end is near

I feel like it's been forever since I've posted. Busy does not even describe my life anymore. I barely have time to breathe. Any time I get to relax, I sleep. I am just so exhausted with all of the work I have been doing. So, here's a bit of an update...


November:

Grayson

This was a great month. Busy, but great. I had a break over Thanksgiving and that was my time to relax. I hung out with the best guy ever and I really developed some serious feelings for him. We are not dating, but I wish we were.
Back around my moms birthday, my cat Samantha went outside and never came home. We ended up getting a new baby kitten name Grayson. It's not the same, but I'm adjusting.
The rest of this month is fuzzy to me.


December:

I was sick the entire month of December. It was miserable. I still somewhat had it leading into January too. I missed two exams because I could not function at all because of the medicine I was taking. I had a two week long break to recover from my sickness and relax.
I got to spend time with some amazing people and get to know this one guy a lot better. Slowly but surely, he's becoming a good friend of mine. A lot of things probably would have gone wrong had I not gotten to know him better when I did. Thanks a million Prevost. <3


January:

Welcome To My World
:)

Welcome 2012!


School wise, Busy busy busy busy busy. I have barely been able to catch my breath this month. With the end of the semester coming, teachers have piled tons of work on my head and it's making it miserable. Especially with missing school from being sick, it's just even more difficult to catch up.
Friend wise, it's been back and forth. There's a certain person that I became somewhat close to, but then they had one of their bipolar fits again. In other words, they are back to ignoring me and hating me because I would not give them what they wanted. The whole situation just annoys me... As for the guy I really became close to back in November, he and I are still friends. Now he has a "best friend", which it is completely obvious they are more than that. But, hey, whatever. We are not dating, so I shouldn't care. But he and I have been acting like this somewhat... Couple type figure. More than a friendship, less than a relationship. So, a flirtationship. He means the world to me, but it's obvious that the feeling is not mutual. It's disappointing from my end, but hey. Can't change what is. I just love spending time with him and he cheers me up, no matter what the situation is. He always makes me smile and laugh. His company makes me happy. Even though I never wanted to, I think I have fallen for this guy.
There have been a lot of friends gained and lost in the past year. Both amazing and horrible. I always hate losing friends over stupid matters, but it only makes me reconsider everything. I am, as I've said before, a firm believer that things happen for a reason. They always have and always will.
Graduation is getting closer and closer. All of the seniors are talking about beach week and going off to college. It will be so sad to see some of them leave, but I'm ready for this year to be over. I have a pretty good idea of who I will keep in touch with and who I will not. It's only about 15 people or so, but that's more than I expected. Once I go off to college, I probably will not talk to many people from my graduating class.
Prom is only 4 months away now! I'm excited. I got my dress back in August, so I don't have to bother with shopping for one. I am pretty much all set. Just, no date... ): Bummer. We shall see what happens as we get close to the actual evening itself.
I know it is only January, but I can't stop thinking about the summer. I just hope this summer lives up to last summer.
Here lately I have been going to the eye doctor a lot. I have high pressure on my eyes, and it is possible that I have an early onset of glaucoma. I have had some intense headaches too, which bring up the suspicion of another brain tumor. I go at the end of this month for more tests and an MRI. Hopefully there is no tumor or glaucoma. I pray there is nothing at all.


There is so much more I could write about, but it's all a blur. Hours feel like minutes, days feel like weeks. Weeks run together, time flies by. Hopefully I will have time to update before 3 months from now...


L M Butler