SCHOOL IS OVER. SUMMER IS HERE. AMEN JESUS CHRIST ALMIGHTY. I am so happy that I survived my junior year. It was a long, difficult, stressful year for so many reasons. I did not finish as strong as I hoped for, but I finished. I honestly thought I would have been held back a year or fail one class because I was out sick for a good portion of the year. In the school system I attend, for those of you reading from across the world or in another state, you are only allowed to miss 10 periods of a single class and 20 periods of your homeroom. Sometimes, they will wave the absences if they were for a valid reason (ie, sickness), but I was still worried. I missed 9 periods of two single classes. I was sweating big time. Haha, but I made it. Thank God. Best of all, I SURVIVED THE BOZ. Oh my gosh, that woman is a great teacher, but the workload is a monster. To some people. it was nothing. However, for me, with everything else I had going on and just personal matters, it was stressful. It is all good now though. My senior year is here and I cannot wait to have the best year ever. I really hope that even with taking four college courses, it will be easier overall if I can keep myself focused.
Now that my senior year is here, I can start the college application process. I am elated to apply to ODU. The more I look at the university, the more I love it. It seems like it will be the perfect school for me. However, my parents are constantly putting me down about it. Telling me that I will not be accepted and will not be able to get enough grants or scholarships to pay for the education... It is really depressing that my own family really does not believe in me, but it just makes me want to prove them wrong. I will be damned if I do not attain my dream. They want me to go to college and earn a degree, but they do not want to be supportive. It would be nice to have the support, but I know I will not get it from them. In the end, it is my future, my education, my life, my dream. If I have to do it on my own, that is fine. At least I know I will not give up on myself.
Graduation came and went. It was extremely emotional to see so many of my close friends leave the Dale hallways and stride across the stage. However, I could not be more proud of all of them. I was able to hold back my tears through the A last names and the B last names, but when I saw my best friend Darby coming up in the C's, I broke down. Thankfully Amanda and Kaitlyn were on stage with me. We were all holding hands, balling our eyes out. All three of us jumped and wooted like wild monkeys when Brandon and Tony had their names called. Just because we love them so much and were so excited to see them walk. It sucks having our bass section break up, but I have a feeling we will all chill one or two days over the summer before our boys leave for college in August.
A few of my friends have actually already left for college. They are either taking summer classes to get ahead or are on athletic scholarship and practicing with their new team. So far, I have been able to remain friends with all of them. However, I can already tell that some of these friendships will soon dwindle. I respect their new lives but that does not mean I will not miss them. To a degree, I care about all of my friends. That is just how I am. Obviously, I care about some more than others. Oh well, I guess. I figure, if the friendship is worth it enough, it will last.
I am trying so hard to find a summer job. It seems like nobody is hiring. The job that I really really really want is looking over applications now, and they told me to call back next week. I pray that I will get an interview and score a job. I need money. Bad. Haha. I want to be able to save some before I go to college.
There really is not a whole lot going on for me this summer. No vacations. No trips. No nothing. I do not mind, but I want to go to the beach so bad. Going to the pool is great and all but... You know. It is not the same. Maybe something will come up last minute like the Weezy concert did, but we shall see...
And by the way,
my birthday is two months from tomorrow! YAY!
L M Butler