Summer sun

Tanning

I'm so lazy... Every time I think about updating my blog, I just shrug and go to sleep. Mainly because it is usually around one, two, or three in the morning when the thought crosses my mind. Haha, oh well. So, allow me to update you.
SCHOOL IS OVER. SUMMER IS HERE. AMEN JESUS CHRIST ALMIGHTY. I am so happy that I survived my junior year. It was a long, difficult, stressful year for so many reasons. I did not finish as strong as I hoped for, but I finished. I honestly thought I would have been held back a year or fail one class because I was out sick for a good portion of the year. In the school system I attend, for those of you reading from across the world or in another state, you are only allowed to miss 10 periods of a single class and 20 periods of your homeroom. Sometimes, they will wave the absences if they were for a valid reason (ie, sickness), but I was still worried. I missed 9 periods of two single classes. I was sweating big time. Haha, but I made it. Thank God. Best of all, I SURVIVED THE BOZ. Oh my gosh, that woman is a great teacher, but the workload is a monster. To some people. it was nothing. However, for me, with everything else I had going on and just personal matters, it was stressful. It is all good now though. My senior year is here and I cannot wait to have the best year ever. I really hope that even with taking four college courses, it will be easier overall if I can keep myself focused.
Now that my senior year is here, I can start the college application process. I am elated to apply to ODU. The more I look at the university, the more I love it. It seems like it will be the perfect school for me. However, my parents are constantly putting me down about it. Telling me that I will not be accepted and will not be able to get enough grants or scholarships to pay for the education... It is really depressing that my own family really does not believe in me, but it just makes me want to prove them wrong. I will be damned if I do not attain my dream. They want me to go to college and earn a degree, but they do not want to be supportive. It would be nice to have the support, but I know I will not get it from them. In the end, it is my future, my education, my life, my dream. If I have to do it on my own, that is fine. At least I know I will not give up on myself.
Graduation came and went. It was extremely emotional to see so many of my close friends leave the Dale hallways and stride across the stage. However, I could not be more proud of all of them. I was able to hold back my tears through the A last names and the B last names, but when I saw my best friend Darby coming up in the C's, I broke down. Thankfully Amanda and Kaitlyn were on stage with me. We were all holding hands, balling our eyes out. All three of us jumped and wooted like wild monkeys when Brandon and Tony had their names called. Just because we love them so much and were so excited to see them walk. It sucks having our bass section break up, but I have a feeling we will all chill one or two days over the summer before our boys leave for college in August.
A few of my friends have actually already left for college. They are either taking summer classes to get ahead or are on athletic scholarship and practicing with their new team. So far, I have been able to remain friends with all of them. However, I can already tell that some of these friendships will soon dwindle. I respect their new lives but that does not mean I will not miss them. To a degree, I care about all of my friends. That is just how I am. Obviously, I care about some more than others. Oh well, I guess. I figure, if the friendship is worth it enough, it will last.
I am trying so hard to find a summer job. It seems like nobody is hiring. The job that I really really really want is looking over applications now, and they told me to call back next week. I pray that I will get an interview and score a job. I need money. Bad. Haha. I want to be able to save some before I go to college.
There really is not a whole lot going on for me this summer. No vacations. No trips. No nothing. I do not mind, but I want to go to the beach so bad. Going to the pool is great and all but... You know. It is not the same. Maybe something will come up last minute like the Weezy concert did, but we shall see...


And by the way,
my birthday is two months from tomorrow! YAY!


L M Butler

Just make a fist and let go

Pep rally line up
Lol little football

Honestly, "same shit, different day" is the story of my life right now. All of the days blend together and I can't seem to keep track of time very well. My time of good luck seems to be off and on. One day I'm having the time of my life and then a few days later, it all goes to crap. Whatever. I'm trying to make the best of it but it seems that I can't control much of what happens.
Homecoming was last weekend and it was amazing. It was a long, tough week, but I survived. Hahah. Spirit week went really well, even though there was an underground week going on too. Here's a picture from Senior Citizen/ Baby Day:

Harrison, an old man with dementia, and Drew, an old, cripple
These guys are the BEST <3

The dance was pretty good. As always though, a guy made me upset there. It never fails... On the flip side, the morning before the dance was amazing. The guy I really like came over for a couple hours after film and we just chilled. It's nice being around him. He's so hilarious. I really wish we could date, but I know it wouldn't probably last through football. I'd get too pissed that we wouldn't be able to see each other much. Maybe once the season ends we can give it a go... I hope.

My crown - TD tradition

School is going well but God forbid it not be crazy. Boswell's class is kicking my butt. I'm so ready for this 9 weeks to be over. NOW. Even though I have a B, it's barely there... Haha. God help me.
Friends and I aren't getting along well. I'm just sort of keeping to myself. I'm just so tired of drama, lies, rumors, and bullcrap. I don't need it pulling me down again. I've finally moved past it all and I don't want it to follow me. It seems like everybody that can find a fault with me right now is doing so. I'm so tired of being put down about the small things. Some people need to put themselves in check and stop worrying about what other people do wrong. I'm not perfect, never will be, and never claim to be.
I'm going to visit UVA in a couple weeks. I'm so excited. I hope I really like it, considering I want to go there SO bad. My guidance counselor asked why I want to apply for only really hard schools. I was like, "They're all difficult? I have a 4.2 GPA. I think I'm good..." Hahah, forreal though.
Back to the guy thing, I can't seem to get him off my mind. I never thought I would ever feel this way about him. Honestly, I didn't know if I would ever like him at all. It's really strange though. I haven't felt this way about someone since Zack, in the terms of how much and why. It's like, I acknowledge his faults and downfalls, but I still care about him and love being around him. However, I don't think it's a good thing. I know he and I wouldn't last any long than high school and I don't want another huge disappointment. On top of it, I don't think he feels the same way... Which makes it worse.
I've been so tense lately. Between school, after school, drama, orchestra, and everything else, I'm slammed. I'm so done with useless people. 


I can't wait to leave all of this behind. Home is where the heart is and my heart isn't here anymore. I'm ready for a change again.


L M Butler


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Pot of gold

Spirit shirt I made to support Christian.
"SOLIS-SHEPPERSON"

I honestly believe that good things happen to people who channel good energy to them. I know that sounds like a hippie way of saying it, but that's the only way I can think of putting it for now. I've been in a great mood and have ignored all of the bad things going on in my life right now; and now all of a sudden a lot of things are getting better and going right. I have not been this happy in a long time.

My friends seem to be coming around. After the whole argument with beloved Shaql, I thought our friendship was completely over. As in never speaking ever again. Well, it seems that I was wrong. I finally got the chance to talk to him, and he was not as 'pissed off' as I thought he was. He is just been super super super busy, and I can understand that completely. I feel so much better about the whole situation now that he and I talked about everything. He is such a great friend and I love him to death. I do not know what I would do without him. In full honesty though, I would probably miss his smile and laugh the most. Hahah.

So, there's this guy... Hahaha. Typical starter for me, eh? Anyway, His name is Tevin. He is insanely hilarious and really sweet. He is a pretty great guy that I hope becomes a long term friend. I also got a letter from my best friend the other day. He says he is doing well but he is really struggling with being so isolated. I feel bad for him, but hell will be home soon. I can not wait to see him. 

"You're wearing #24 on you one way or another..."

Homecoming is coming up in three weeks. THREE weeks. That is it! I am going bananas. There is so much to do and nobody is helping me. Sometimes I wondering why I ran for SCA VP. All we have done so far though is figure out the themes for the Spirit Week days and the Homecoming Dance theme. However, we still have to get them approved by the administration and everything. The process is taking forever and I doubt this whole thing will go smoothly. I am so tired of having a shitty crappy HC Dance. I hope that we have better decorations this year. Wait, we WILL have better decorations this year because I am the one planning it. Duh. :)

School is going pretty good. Boswell's class is kicking my ass butt though. She is a demon lady, I swear. Hahaha. Surprisingly, AP US History is going really well. I enjoy the class and I am not doing too bad. Mr. Duncan is the best teacher ever. I take my SAT on December third, so wish me luck. I am a little nervous about it, but I think I will do pretty good. After I get my results, I am applying for college! YAY!

Also with school, I have All County Orchestra coming up as well. That is in two weeks. Then, in four weeks the entire Orchestra has our Fall concert. The Concert Orchestra is pretty good this year and we are playing some good music. I am really looking forward to it.

I take Behind The Wheel in two weeks to get my license. I am so excited. AND I get my braces off in five weeks. I am counting down the days, believe me. I will be so happy to get these little suckers off my teeth. The Orthodontist said they will look fantastic.

As I said before, it is like everything is going really great at the moment. I have some amazing friends and have left the bad ones behind. I get my license soon and my braces off very soon as well. To top it off, school is pretty great right now too. Need less to say, I am a very happy girl right now. It seems I have hit my Pot of Gold.

L M Butler

Bro, she's a hoe

Last day in English with Mrs. Holdell

You know, here lately I haven't wanted to get on the computer very much. Probably because I've been spending all-nighters and crap because of school. I feel like I've been neglecting my blog. Hah. Oh well, it's summertime now. Bring it on.
Graduation is done and over with. Congratulations to the TDHS class of 2011. I didn't cry at all, unlike last year. (But we all know why that was) I even surprised myself. Hah. Everyone in the orchestra whooped for Dale B. He looked so spiffy. And my best friend looked amazing. I couldn't be happier for him. I hope he enjoys what is in store for him. I know he'll be great.
I'm finally done with school, for now. My exams were beyond easy. I don;t know why I fretted them. Hah, however this summer is going to be crazy. I'm teaching again, but this year it's second graders. God, please help me. Hah. I also have to start all of my grant and scholarship applications. First two on the list, University of Virginia and University of Michigan. I'm hype, but a little scared.
Other interesting things right now are... I have poison ivy again. Again! I hate this crap with a passion. I just want to torch it all. Also, I have a date tomorrow night. I really don't want to go but I feel like it would be mean to stand him up. I'm too nice sometimes. Ya know? Whatever. I'll probably just tell him I'm sick or something then block his number. HAH! Sorry, brah. That's mean, I know. However, I really don't care. I'm really not interested in dating anyone right now. After the last two guys, I don't want another break up like that. I'd rather just have a friend with a little something more. Hah. I know you're probably thinking, "Wow, man. She's a hoe." But no, I'm not. You and your little naughty school girl fantasies need to get a room.
I want next summer to hurry up and be here already. I can't wait to go to London for the Olympics. Hell, I'm not even having a sweet 16 party this year because of the cost of the trip. Oh well. Beggars can't be choosers. I haven't had a party in forever though, so I guess it doesn't matter. What I really want to do, is go to Longstreet's with a few friends for dinner. That'd be even better. 


So, here lately I've been addicted to Twitter. You twiggas out there should follow me - DanceInTeRain
:)


L M Butler

Pickups and letdowns

Best overall

Phew. This month is kicking my butt. I've got too much to do. Haha. At least I'm not bored to tears.
Busch Gardens was this past weekend! It was so much fun. I stayed with Michael, Amanda, Shannon, and Brandon the whole day. We did awesome at festival even though Mr. Johnston couldn't figure out how to get off stage and forgot which song we were on. Hah! But both orchestras got first place in their division and over all best orchestra in the competition.
Prom is next weekend and I'm really looking forward to it. My dress is so pretty and my date, Brandon, is the best. He's such a sweetheart. I'm so excited to get to chill with him for two weekends in a row. I'm waiting to see how this gym will look... Mrs. Zoller says it's going to be pretty cool, but we'll see.
Graduation is almost here. I'm so sad about it. So many of my friends are leaving and I don't want them to. Although it's a little funny how "best friend" is getting mad that I'm becoming good friends with Dale and saying that I'll miss him a lot. Jealous much? Possibly. I'll miss them both, but not as much as someone who already left.
I took my Chemistry SOL today. It was so easy. I don't know why I freaked out over it. Now I have my math one next week. I'm just hoping to pass that one. Haha.
Color Guard tryouts are next week. I'm nervous. A lot of people keep telling me the girls are bitchy as hell, but I'll form my own opinion on that one. I know there's one girl I don't particularly like, but oh well.
Otherwise, I'm really getting tired of guys letting me down. Ya know? It really sucks. I really hate the "I like you a lot, but nothing is going to happen between us unless it benefits me." line. Prick. I'm so close to slapping the hell out of that dude that it's not even funny. Whatever though. I haven't dated someone in almost a year and so I don't think I'll date anyone until college. I guess I really shouldn't care, eh? My friend said, "Just give it time..."


L M Butler

Better than expected

The set list

One week down, three to go. May is packed full of fun but crazy things to do. I'm looking forward to summer...
Rock 4 Life was this past Saturday. The concert went better than I anticipated, actually. Everyone did pretty good. We played a lot of great songs this year. The basses killed it in Come Together and the audience loved it. Some things about it were less than impressive, but nothing is perfect. Two things that really pissed me off though was the photographer and the "Thank You's". About the photographer, I'm sorry, but maybe we should try someone different next year. The man who took the concert photos singled out certain people and took like 20 pictures of them. Seriously, what a joke. That's not fair to everyone. Especially the seniors who really wanted to be included in them. Professional my ass butt. However, the photos be took of those... Twelve out of 78+ different people were pretty good... And about the "Thank You's", some people weren't given enough credit for what they did do. Poor "best friend". He busted his ass for Tech. set up, and barely received any credit for anything. Some people had their "work" blown out of proportion and it wasn't fair to the people that worked just as hard as they did. Yet, those people were hardly mentioned in the Thank You brochure. But, whatever. What's done is done. Let's move on to R4L 2012.
Anywho, speaking of Orchestra, Busch Gardens competition is this weekend. I'm excited. Although Mr. J failed to mention it's Gay Pride weekend. Dear Lord, man. Of all weekends. Hah. But it doesn't bother me. I just find it amusing. I'm still excited to be going, period. And I get to spend the night at Amanda's the night before. So, win win.
Prom is almost here! Only two more weeks. I went to get my dress altered today. It was the first time my mom got to see it on me and she cried. Haha. I adore the dress, and when it gets taken in some more, it'll look better on me. Even the one person I though wouldn't like it, did. And that made me very happy to have his opinion, and for it to be a good one.
Graduation is coming up so very quickly. It's starting to hit me, hard. I'm going to miss so many people. So many great people. Between Dale, Rochelle, Mandi, Kate F., Carter, Joel, Ellynn, Maya, and so many others, I'm going to be a basket case. Oh boy... Hah. I love them all.
School wise, it's calm. The year is winding down and SOLs are coming these next three weeks. I'm just leaning back and sleeping in some classes. There's not much else I want to do. Plenty I could, but hey... I busted my butt all year until now. I think I deserve naps.
Home life is good. My parents are sort of pissed about the whole prom thing. It' ended up being a big expense. Between my ticket, dress, shoes, jewelry, hair, nails - the whole shabang; it's expensive as all get out. I'm paying for my dinner though with the little bit of money I made of the Mother's Day holiday.
I'm really getting back into my little grumpy funk, again. It sucks. I really dislike being sad over stupid crap that happened forever ago, but my heart/mind doesn't forget, it only forgives. I just need bitchslap myself and move along. There's not much more I can do. Not to be a Debbie Downer, but life's a bummer at times. Memories of certain things never fade. I just hope I can make some that are even better than those, soon.


L M Butler

Get it over with

Spring Break is over. Sadly. It went by way too quickly. It sucked. Towards the end of it though, I went to see my aunt Trish. We passed through Farmville and made a pit stop at LU. It was really nice and pretty swell. Trish's boyfriend brought over his granddaughter and she was just plain adorable. She wouldn't leave me alone though. I like kids, but not when they cling to me and slobber on me like a dog.
Prom is coming up. I just got my ticket today. I'm so excited. I have the sweetest date ever. Hah. My dress is beautiful. However, I have to take it to get it altered next week. I'm too much of a shorty, even with heels. Being 5'4" really has it's disadvantages at times. Daddy offered to pay to get my hair and nails done with the girls, so that's a bonus. I think he's almost more excited than I am... HAH.
In other news, Rock 4 Life is in NINE days! Oh my Lord, I've never been so stressed. Mr. J is being brutal. We had a rehearsal yesterday and he yelled at pretty much everyone and kicked one person out. It's crazy. He's been a grumpy butt here lately. Hopefully after R4L is over, he'll ease up because we have Busch Gardens to look forward to and he doesn't have to worry about graduation.
Speaking of graduation, that's coming up really fast, too. I have even more friends leaving this year who I'm even closer to. Last year was sad but this year is going to be even worse. Then again, some of them will be good to get rid of. A good amount of the seniors this year are annoying as all get out. Sometimes I just want to shove a sock in their mouths.
May is SOL month, or Standards of Learning testing. Personally I refer to it as the Shit-Out-of-Luck test, but they're easy to pass. I feel bad for the suckers that fail it. Taking a final exam is always worse. Seniors have a major advantage though. All they have to do is have a B- or better in a class and they exempt their finals for that class. I wish they gave that to Juniors too, at least. Oh well.
So, I love how when I try to avoid someone, they follow me. Really, punk? Screw off. I really really dislike it when people can't take the hint to go away. It's one thing if it's over text because sometimes that's a bit difficult to comprehend; however, when somebody can't get it in person, they need to be slapped or something. Stupid people annoy me.

Lil' miss Awbrey

L M Butler

Don't hate, participate

Oh my, such a long past few weeks it has been. I'm busy as always but I don't expect any less. I'd rather work too much than not enough.
Anywho, so Rock 4 Life is only 32 days away! Everyone is working their asses butts off trying to get everything ready. Between the meetings every Monday night and Friday afternoon, we're able to manage. We're making a R4L Yearbook and it's turning out pretty cool. I'm actually suppose to be writing something for it at this moment, but I'm preoccupied by my own blog. Shame on me, I know. I also made a seating chart of the entire TDHS auditorium. Oh my Lord, it took forever to do 1/3 of it and I'm still not done. However, it looks amazing (just saying). Check out the Rock4Life crew and concert.
In other riveting news, my latest addition has been Bdubs. I've gone there twice a week for the past four weeks. The place is amazing. If you've never been there, you need to go. And don't pull the, "Well, I live in Ethiopia and we don't have those here." Too bad, get on a plane and go to Buffalo Wild Wings. Excuses are for wimps.
So, the 30 Day Challenge has ended for me. However, still go check it out if you haven't already. I've had people say to me, "Really? You put that person in it?" Yeah, really. I did. Some things are on there because I couldn't think of anything else to put that I had a photo of. Honestly, just get over it. If anyone has some off-the-wall problem with it, I honestly don't give a flying frigg'. It's my blog for a reason. I'm sure you can appreciate that. Remember, it's on the right side bar under "Check it out!".
On another note, school is driving me crazy. Two of my teachers just flat out suck and the one won't stop being a Debbie-Downer about everything. Orchestra is the class that is agitating me the most though. Mr. J asked me to basically mentor a freshman who's coming to Dale next year, and I think it's bogus. In other words, he wants to stick me in Concert and listen to me bitch complain about how awful I think the class is. Again. Personally, I think he just doesn't care for me. Whatever. I'm thinking about taking Jazz Band with Mr. Barton instead. Just to get away from being in Concert for another year. The music is too easy, which is the only reason I just chill in that class. Oh well, only 7 more weeks.
Speaking of classes, Mr. Duncan's class is just getting better and better. I realize I somewhat favor this teacher, but I don't care. If you were to attend just one class, you'd understand where I'm coming from. For example, we mocked how Russia should take the aids from the United States. Also, how one should contain red Kool-aid in a bowl. One may ask, how does this relate to history? Good question. He teaches us valuable lessons on why somebody shouldn't speed near deaf  kids because they can't hear the horn to run away, and how to dispose of bodies in a proper fashion. Somehow, he always brings it back on topic. Best. Class. Ever.
Remember how I said that Orchestra wasn't going to Disney? Well, now I'm glad we didn't because all that came out of that trip was drama. Dag on. Those choir people really know how to start some crap. The hilarious thing was though, people were betting about who was going to start something while they were there. Even a few chorus people said to me, "The people in chorus are snobs. I'm glad to have peace for a few days." Hah, awesome to be a back stabber, eh?
I'm to the point of counting days for London. I'm beyond excited. It's... 452 days until I leave? Something of that nature I'm thinking... It's the only thing I'm looking forward to at this point. Except for a certain someone coming down for a bit this summer. I can't wait to see him. He's the greatest.


This is what I need. Fast forward to 0:33. Operation: Ending Skankdom. It'll save lives people, or just help not create them. Also, I'd recommend not watching the whole thing. It gets annoying, heads up.


L M Butler

High and dry

I know for us here day light savings just kicked in, but the days are feeling shorter. I guess I'm just so slammed with crap to do that it doesn't feel like time is passing by. Oh well, the faster it goes by the better. I want 2012 to get here already. LONDON! Woot woot!
So, I've been driving for a little over three weeks now, and I'm steady scaring the piss out of my mother. It's hilarious. I'll purposely cut a curb too close or what not just to piss her off. I can't wait to drive to North Carolina in a few weeks. It's a four hour drive from one door to the other of each house. That'll be one heck of a trip...
So, I'm getting really disappointed with Orchestra. It's sad. For example, the "every 2 year" trip for Chorus and Band is to Orlando, Florida. For Theatre and Dance, it's to NYC. For Orchestra, it's Busch Gardens... Really?! Pathetic. Not even out of the state, man. But, whatever. At least we're maybe going somewhere, and I love BG. I always have a great time. And this year I'll be with Brandon and Amanda. That's just asking for mischief. Hah.
Speaking of Orchestra, we're about five weeks away from the Rock 4 Life concert. Deadlines are coming up quicker and quicker and nobody is doing much of anything. Some people say they'll help, but they never come through. Whatever. And the Pancake Breakfast is at the end of April over Spring Break and I can't go. I'll admit, I'm a lil' pissed I can't be there, but I'll be in NC. So, no biggie.
School wise, I got a thing in the mail the other day saying, "Congratulations! You've been nominated to be in the NSHSS!" All because I have a GPA of a 3.89. Dweeb? I think so. Overachiever? Not really. Getting into UVA? Hopefully. Wish me luck.
So, about school. I've noticed there are a lot of... Loose girls where I go. And I use that term nicely. There are plenty other more vulgar words I'd rather use. Seriously. If I see one more pregnant girl, I'm going to be sick. And almost everyday I hear from a friend of mine, "Guess who screwed who now!" Really dude? Do you keep tabs on this shit crap? May I say, "NO LIFE"? It's just gross. Not to mention the couples that break up once a week, then get back together by the end of the day. What a shame. All the more reason why graduation should hurry up. I don't care for many of the people I have to deal with under a day-to-day basis. However, I will never like all of them, ever.
More specifically, history class wise. Mr. Duncan said today, "Hitler convinced them to 'Not get in bed with the U.S. because they'll leave you high and dry.' Which makes a lot of sense when you think about it." I was stunned. I'd never heard a teacher incorporate something so... risqué yet make such great sense. Good term, but interesting use. It'll be something I'll remember, that's for sure. Haha.
In other news, what's with everybody enlisting here lately? Three guys I know are leaving in August in the Navy, and another I'm pretty fond of is leaving in August too for the Army. I'm sad they're leaving because they're all great guys, but I'm glad to see the one go. Cruel, I know, but hey. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. Although the guy leaving for the Army won't be home until Christmas. Which really sucks because I'll miss him a lot.
Lastly, the 30 Day Challenge is almost over for me. I'll probably do something similar to it later on this year. However, for now, check out the 30 Day Challenge blog. You can find the link on the right side bar.


L M Butler

Catch a cold, from the ice inside your soul

The rain is never ending, it seems. I love it. However, my yard doesn't seem to but so much. It's become a giant pond. Hah, oh well.

Anywho, I auditioned for Chamber yesterday and I felt like I could cry. It was awful. The SRO music is crazy. The one song I had down perfectly, but of course, when I went to the storage room to record it, I fucked screwed up everything possible. Seth came in the storage room with me to listen, and I just wanted to throw something at him. He was snickering. I'd love to see his punk self try it...

Speaking of orchestra, we've started preparing for the Rock4Life concert in May. I love playing that music. It's really funny to see the two freshman basses, Kaitlyn and Victoria, attempt some of it. Kaitlyn was like, "Oh Lord! How the hell am I supposed to play that!?" Hah, I love that class. If you have no clue as to what R4L is, click on the Facebook link to it on the right side bar. It's pretty awesome.

So, I love how I was talking to the "best friend" the other day, and I mentioned to him that I post about him in the 30 Day Challenge blog. He said, "Yeah, I heard. I haven't read it, but I know somebody who stalks your blog." This is flattering, yet sort of creepy. I can't think of anyone who would stalk my blog and speak to him. Now I'm curious. And, as we've already established, my curiosity will be the death of me someday.

So, it seems here lately it's been "let's harass Butler" month or something. No matter what I do, somebody has something to say about everything. Then they threaten me, thinking that I'll quiver in my boots. C'mon. Honestly, grow a pair, man. Their bark is bigger than their bite. I just ignore them and watch them nag. It's funny to me. But people are just so ignorant and don't quit. With a few of them, I think they just lack a heart and soul. Grow up, this isn't middle school anymore. My opinion is, if you only find fault with me, move the heck on. Get out of my life if that's all you're going to do. Stop with the Debbie Downer attitude and the nit-picking.

In other riveting news, I'm losing my voice again. I tend to misplace it a lot. (Did you catch that crappy pun?) I think it's because I've been screaming and yelling a lot, on top of being sick. And no, not screaming and yelling at people. With them. I get really into playing badminton; so I scream, yell, and jump a lot during the games. My friend Namri thinks it's the funniest thing in the world. What can I say, it's a fun game.

Click on the title. It'll take you to my latest addiction. Enjoy.

L M Butler

Pity the fool

Richmond
Photo credit to Jeanine

Today has been a rainy day here in the VA. We need it though. Everything has been so dry and fire prone. Personally, I adore the rain. It's so pretty. Especially in the city. 

So, I have some amazing news! The Thomas Dale Chamber and Concert orchestras both got straight ones at festival! Amazing right?! I was so excited. The soloists were amazing in Chamber and Concert was... Good too. Hah. We didn't expect all ones for Concert at all. Amanda was coughing and hacking through the entire thing and we somewhat messed up. The sight reading was awesome though. In the end, despite what we believe, we got Superior. It just doesn't get any better than that.

Speaking of Concert and Chamber, Chamber auditions are Wednesday. I've barely practiced and the music is crazy. I have to play my harmonic G and high D, E, and F in sixteenth notes. Ahhh, it's brutal. I'm looking forward to it though. I'd love to be in Chamber because I like music that's more difficult. Wish me luck.

Another thing for me to look forward to is that I get my permit tomorrow. Even though I've already been driving somewhat, tomorrow it will be legal. Although the stupid vehicle I get to drive will irritate the living hell out of me. I'm surprised it isn't dead by now. Oh well, beggars can't be choosers.

Among other things to look forward to are Arts In The Ally coming up on the 12th and 13th. I get to read the Night trilogy for history here soon, and the plans for the 2012 Olympics should be finalize as well. Get hype, brah.

So, my "best friend" brought to my attention the other day that he and I are losing touch with one another. Ever since that big fallout between us in the hall last year, it's been going down hill. I feel bad because I hate it when I vier away from friends. He and I have been through so much crap with each other that it's starting to make things worse. To be honest, I'm surprised we've stayed friends as long as we have.

On another note, I think Senioritis is setting in for me a year early. I've become so lazy and just bored with high school. Next year will be pretty awesome because I'm taking two AP classes and a Forensic Chemistry course. For right now though, it's so very slow. Words can not describe how much I can't wait to go off to UVA. I'll be damned durned if I don't get in.

Speaking of high school, drama just doesn't go away. It's all a "he said - she said" blah blah blah story. I love finding things out about myself through other people. It's quite amusing. My favorite is the, "Well, so and so said you said blah blah blah..." and "So I've heard you want to fight her..." Really?! I pity you people who believe mess like that. Why would I waste my time fighting anyone? I have no tolerance for things of that nature. And if I have anything to say about anyone, I'd rather say it to their face so that there's no confusion as to what was said. C'mon people, give it a rest.

The 30-Day-Challenge blog is smooth sailing, for those of you who're of interest. Some of the things in that blog are a little bit different than things I post on this one. One should check it out, eh? Click on the photo that says 30 Day Challenge under "Check it out!" on the right side of this page, and it'll take you there.

L M Butler

Overwhelmed and so on...

Busy just hasn't been the word for me here lately.  It's almost ridiculous, but I'd rather be busy than painstakingly bored.  So far, for the past three weeks, I've been after school every day for at least an hour and a half.  It's great.

Pep rally and the Homecoming game are tomorrow.  I'm rather excited.  Considering I'm on Pep Rally Committee, I get to skip out on orchestra.  Lucky me.  Also, after school I have to help out with the tailgate for three different clubs.  It should be very interesting because the times were changed.  I hope all goes well.  And before tailgate, I'm heading over to the Freshy campus to visit someone in particular; afterward, the girls and I are all heading to Chik-Fil-A, too.  It should be fun.

For those who take an interest, the Requiem concert was amazing!  Everyone in the chorus and orchestra couldn't have done any better.  I can't wait for the Christmas concert.
This past Saturday, I went to All County Orchestra; it was pathetic.  I've never been so embarrassed to have my name to a performance in my life.  The rehearsals were  fine, and everyone did pretty swell.  Then come time for the concert, however, everyone bombed their parts.  Need less to say, it was an epic fail.

On another note, the beloved "best friend" of mine and I are back to not speaking, yet again.  Go figure, sadly.  I love him to death and he's like a brother to me, but our friendship is just so messed up.   I've had enough.  When he leaves for the Navy in a few months, that'll be the end of that soap opera.

L M Butler

Hitting close to home

Well, now that October has rolled around, a lot of things are moving along quite quickly in my daily life.  The beloved orchestra director has decided to have us play Requiem for our fall concert.  It's amazingly beautiful, although a little bland for the basses.  In my opinion, it's more so for the chorus, rather than the orchestra; nevertheless, it's fantastic when it's all put together.  It took me a bit to realize that it's a Roman Catholic funeral mass.  Considering my family is Catholic and my grandfather passed last October, I think it might hit a little too close to home for some of my relatives.
In other news, the most frightening assignment of the year so far has finally passed for me, thank God.  The assignment was to read the novel The Prince by N. Machiavelli, and then a week later, write an essay about it.  The essay's main topic was, "What is Machiavelli's idea of a great leader?"  Considering I couldn't stay awake while reading the book, I barely knew this.  Although, the night before the essay, I highlighted everything I needed to mention in the novel; in which, it worked out fine, and I got an A.  I'd say that's an epic win.

On another note, I've been stressed beyond belief with so many things happening at once.  Then again, I'm an adrenaline junkie, so it doesn't really bother me all that much.  The only thing that's getting to me is now that Zack has graduated, I hear his name almost everyday in some conversation or another.  I mean, really?  It's irritating.  I assumed that once he was gone, I'd never hear anything about or to do with him again; but no, that'd be too simple.  Wouldn't it?  I still miss him a lot and I'm still a little upset about the whole thing.  Then again, it really doesn't matter.  Nothing will bring him back.  Hopefully this Saturday will take my mind off of that whole subject.  (I'll detail that another time.)

L M Butler

Enough said

Of all ways for me to spend my Saturday, I choose to go to SRO.  Not only did I have to get up at 4:30a to go to Commonwealth, but it was an hour and a half drive to Charlottesville, and I had to wait all day even though I was finished at eleven.  All in all, it was a ten hour day trip for an orchestra audition.

Speaking of the audition itself, I can't help but laugh in embarrassment.  I was very comfortable with the Rotation #2: etude and excerpt, although not so much with the scales.  I went into the giant blind auditioning room, and the judges began to instruct me on which scales to play.  Before the woman could finish what she was saying, I was laughing hysterically.  Her voice was so amusing, that I couldn't focus.  Long story short, my entertainment got the best of me and I bombed my audition.  So much for my usual first-chair reputation; I made second alternate.  What a joke.  I could complain as much as I'd like to, but I did have an alright time.

Anywho, in other news, my computer has been running very slow here lately, so I figured I'd delete some old documents of old papers, collages, abstracts, and pictures.  I found all of these old photos from the beginning of last year, Homecoming, December through June, and so on.  A lot of pictures with people I'm no longer associated with were deleted, but I kept several to do with certain people.  For old memories sake...  Good times, very swell times.  I'd relive it all again if I were given the opportunity.  But honestly, I wish things had never changed between me and some particulars.

L M Butler